France - 26 June 2018

This is my first post after a long long time.

I had never ever thought that after the last post, I would be writing my next post today. Today is a special day.

Actually not just today, since past week, my days have been going on extremely roughly. I have broken up with a close friend, the closest friend I had at EDHEC.

The reasons for breaking up my friendship are many. In some sense, I had been waiting for this to happen since a long time. I knew this was coming and a friend had been warning me too about this since long, but I chose to close my eyes.

I didn't want to see the reality.

They say, whatever happens, happens for a reason. I believe in this. I never thought it would be so bad though. And it is happening when I am in a situation that I had been wanting for since long.

But now I feel, I don't want this situation. I never actually wanted this situation. I never wanted her to be with me.

I knew it all along that this would happen some day. Some day, I kept waiting for that some day. I kept on pushing it. Never realizing that pushing it didn't mean that it won't come.

It came and swept me away like a broken leaf in the wind.

It came when I was totally unprepared. I never expected to get this much  affected by it but it did.

They say the depth of your affection/love today is the depth of your wound tomorrow. Yes it is true. Love and affection leads to very high highs and very low lows. This is true. The more you attach to someone, the more it affects you.

Thank god there are some relations that don't leave you no matter how deep into the abyss you fall. They would always want your happiness. Always want to see you happy.

I am on path of recovery and I am surviving.

I want to live again and be free and happy again. Just like I was before coming to France.

Life is strange, Life is full of surprises and unexpected situations. The more you give, the more it takes. The more you sow, the greater you reap.

Some incidents leave a long lasting mark on you and I feel this one would be that. The mistakes I made in this one would help me learn some painful but essential life lessons.

May god bless me.

The silent listener !!!!

The silent listener is back.Yes .! this is the name i have given to myself after soo long time. What i feel is that this name suits me.I'll surely like to tell u what has happened all this time in the coming days but first i'll like to focus on why i call myself with this name.

Truly speaking its very hard for me to share my feelings with anyone.The people/friends who think that they know me don't really know me.I'm not even sure about my parents and my brother.But the dilemma i'm facing now is that whether i should keep all these feelings with  myself or should share it with someone..?

what i personally feel is that i can share all this only with a pet and not with any person coz there r so many things to share ...so many happenings in my life that i'll fall to the bottom in the eyes of that person.

 

Alone Together !!!!

It's around 11pm.Right now i am sitting in one of my friend's room.Most of the students have gone home as there are 3 holidays except for a few like me. I don't know whether they like to b alone like me or there'z some other reason that they r staying here.But it feels that a person gets a lot of time in such vacations for thinking about himself...his life etc.Many thoughts are in my mind at this time about my college,my life.
But at present i am thinking about my brother.Next week he's going abroad for pursuing his MBA,but truly speaking i don't know that i am happy or not.I am so much dependent on him that i can't think of taking any decision without consulting him.He's my idol and the best person i have ever know and most probably would ever know.A perfect guy,with an extra ordinary brain.He knows me better than anyone else and i can confidently say that even my parents don't know me so much as much as my brother.'Bhai' as i call him since my childhood days,since i have known him,its hard for me to think that soon he'll go away..and may be he'll stay abroad only after that.But i thing which i can say with 200% confidence is that no matter ho far is he from me physically but mentally we are 1 and no force can take him or me away from each other.I respect him d most in this world.I love u bhai.
i'll b back :)

Some thoughts on Facebook !!!!

There r many social networking websites today but the extent to which facebook has affected us in incomparable to any other one.Facebook has always been one of my favourite sites since i started using it not only coz its entertaining but initially it waz my only way of chatting with her. Even today it's an integral part of my life nd i luv using it.But what i like nd i usually do is that i keep my chat off i.e. i remain offline although i may b logged on facebook for long hours.
Having an experience of about 1.5 years on Fb i have made some conclusions about status updates on it nd i'll like to share it wid u :-

1.The status having content related to love or friendship is more likely to get more likes than other status.Status having technical stuff r less liked by people.
2.Using different kinds of fonts help in attracting more number of people.
3.Status length is one of the most imp. factors determining likes on ur status.Shorter the status(preferably 1-2lines) more are d number of likes on it.
4.If u r a regular uploader of ur pics den d number of likes on ur pics would gradually reduce.People who upload their pics less oftenly get more number of likes on their pics.
5.Copying someone else's status puts a bad expression on people.Better not to do it.
6.Naughty statuses r liked by only a certain section of people nd not by all.

Using Fb for long times usually makes it boring after some time.To maintain your interest in it, use it to a less extent.I have often seen people trying to show off by doing wall posts, although they can get their work done by sending messages also.I hate it.
That's for now.i'll b back :)

Monsoons...feeling lively !!!!

Its around 10:30am nd i am in my hostel room.Today's journey from home to college was wonderful.Its been raining since d last 3 days here in northern India and the weather is just awsumm.I study at Thapar University patiala nd it normally takes around 2 hrs to reach there by bus from my home but today due to heavy rain it took nearly 3.5 hrs nd truly speaking i was happy that it took long.Looking outside through window is my childhood habit nd i still follow it coz i love it.Listening music,thinking about different things(nature, life) nd witnessing those beautiful natural views jst makes it a perfect moment.The weather outside is still cloudy nd m free for 2 hrs so thought to open my blog.
Let me also share this wid u that i jst saw that there'z been a malayisian viewer of my blog nd i am happy about it. I often think that writing blog in this kind of facebook chatting manner can pose a problem to my viewers but then i feel that its actually not a big problem though.Truly speaking this blog has come as a boon for me coz i am gonna express my 99% thoughts on it but nt 100% coz i can't.May b in future i change this thought but that only time will tell.
I an waiting for a message from one of my best frends(although i don't want ONLY frendship but more) but before u start thinking more about it i m gonna stop here only.But don't worry we'll talk about it later for sure.
i'll b back :)

The first Day...Or the first night?

Its around 12:10 am nd i am busy editing my first blog on the net. As a new comer in the blog ground i am very xcited about it.The inspiration for creating a blog goes one of my friend as i saw him in his room at my college busy using his blog. The way he showed me the the number of users from all around the world accessing his blog  led me to creating my own one.There's alot that i am going to share on this blog, about my life, my interests, my dreams nd offcourse my school nd college days. It's late now nd i hav to go to bed as tomorrow morning m going back to the college after a three days long holiday. I'll b back :)